I just bought my first home today.  We take possesion on April 1.  I am still shocked.  We have been waiting, working, saving, for what seems like forever, and finally it is here.  How this life changing journey began for me.  The house that I originally wanted, we had an agreement of renting with the option to buy in one year..during that year, the owner died suddenly of a heart attack.  We continued for the remander of the year thinking that the house was ours.  When we contacted the son..now the owner..he priced the house out of our price range...we lost the house.  So we move into my parents basement...me, my husband, and two teenage daughters, oh and don't forget the dog.  We have been here for exactly one year..and it has been a lifetime.    

 Why the title:  I came to understand my happiness, my well being, my personalitiy is tied to the change of the seasons, and to the ablity to call to the Gods, through cooking, to watch over me and my family.  When I moved into my moms basement, I have no kitchen, therefore I must share hers and I couldn't keepthe things I needed to practice it became a chore...I no longer wanted to talk with the Gods.  I wanted to prepare the meal and get back downstairs.  I became very angry, nothing was working out right.  My husband actually told me he didn't like the person that I was becoming.  So I started soul searching, and asking questions like " What has changed"  "what is so different"..  I bought my fave herbs, organic, fresh, and what I wanted for dinner, and I called the Gods.  I felt the stress, the tension, the agrivation, leave.  Just simply exit my body like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders.  The sun was shinning again.   I am comfortable in my decision and I have to know that, this is my calling and that my true friends will accept me.